dilema..

salam..suspen jer bunyi title post kali ni..ape yg dilema nye??well uwais tido so quick entry sementara he sleeping..baru lepas feeding

Back to the tittle..uwais having his first cough..so me taking my first emergency leave..bukanlah sebab his having cough me have to take el plak..melampau!..but his baby sitter still not back from kampung lagi,on wednesday which we supposed to send uwais back to babysitter after long weekend,baby sitter inform xdapat balik kl sebab nak checkup anak dia..so hubby who is supposed to start working kenalah amik cuti,then when babysitter who is supposed to come back lastnite cakap anak dia not well,demam and coughing plus chesty..''o'ooo..!!''for me..takan nak antar uwais to baby sitter sedangkan anak org tu xsihat..nanti jangkit plak..dahla uwais baru baik coughing..so no choice me have to take leave and jaga uwais lah..i told baby sitter on monday baru start antar balik..

Ape yg dilema nye?...me and hubby is considering sending uwais to other baby sitter..tengah mencari still..kalo bleh biarlah yg duk satu blok appartment ngn kitorang..senang nak amik dan hantar.Tulah..tgh duk survey2..we just moved in..xkenal saper pon lagi kat sini ade gak tanye2..so far yg tanye tu mesti jawb.."tak tau lah..anak akak ni antar kat umah nenek diorang.."..takpun.."antar kat umah akak.."..hmhm so fevret question my hubby ask when he saw anybody wif baby iyalah.."antar kat mana anak?"...hhehe.Bukanlah current baby sitter tu x bagus..dia jaga ok..its just rumah dia tu agak jauh from our place..its about 15 minutes journey kalo x jem..half an hour kalo jem..but most of the time mmg jammed lah..kl nih mane tak jem..especially stay kat cheras nih..sometimes it takes bout 45 minutes to and back from baby sitter place..considering nursery??..i dont think so since uwais is just 2 month old..dan he is not tido-buai-type..so he doesnt sleep for long..kalo dah antar nursery bleh ke diorang coop nak jaga dia and other kids at the same time..hmm..bila fikir balik ok jugak antar kat current b.sitter nih..dia xkesah amik lewat ke antar awal ker..dan dia cuma jaga uwais and his 2 year old son jer..anak dia pon dia x ajar tido buai..considering antar to my in law..?uuhh,...i don think so jugak..first biarlah me and hubby bersusah sket dlm raise up our son..xnaklah amik jalan mudah antar kat mertua..they had their time raising their own kids..so its time for us plak having our hard and sweet time raising ours...walaupun my mther in law mmg nak sgt jaga tp ...xpelah..skang bukan masa diorang nak bersusah jaga anak kita..let them do whatever they like..mengisi hari2 tua..bukannye jaga anak kita..sesekali dtg jenguk and kita blk umah diorang..main ngn our son oklah..tp bukan tinggalkan utk dijaga...so thats all to share..nak masak plak utk perut sendiri sementara uwais still sound asleep..daahh

its monday..and me will start working again today..arini afternoon shif but we still send uwais to baby sitter in the morning..hubby antar aku blk umah..then he go to work. will fetch uwais ptg nanti,mlm both of them will fetch me plak at work.today is the first day so hopefully everything will go smoothly.
Alhamdullillah uwais have no problem being placed inside his car seat..actually bkn his own carseat pon..di donate oleh his cousin,according to my brother in law,uwais's cousin ni mmg xnak duk dlm car seat tu langsung..mahaall..bapak nye beli tapi anak nya xnak duk dlm tuh..kesian,,kesian sape?..kesian bapaknye lahhh..!!hheheh..tp rasanye mmg dari awal my bro in law and his wife xajar anak diorang duk dlm carseat tu..masa awal2 beli which is baby diorang tu kecik lagi..diorang sibuk plak letak baby dlm bassinet..ala basket baby tuh..so bila dah besar sket,dah lasak manelah nak duk dlm carseat lg..skang lagilah dah berlari jgn harap nak duk diam..just imagine anak baru sorang tp mak bapak dah kena pakai grand livina..supaya apa?supaya anak tuh bleh berlari dlm kete..and bleh tido ngn selesanye didlm kete..well tu kemampuan dan kehendak org..kita x leh nak ckp ape..hopefully aku xyah lah sampai nak kena tukar to bigger car just to let my son berlari dlm kete..huhu..
This wdnesday uwais syafi will turn 2months old..hehe dah pandai smile bila di agah,mencebik bila sedih dan dimarah*(marah buat buat je la..)..dah pandai buat bunyi mcm nak berborak,bercakap dan panggil kita carry dia bila dah bored ditinggalkan alone..uwais dah dimandikan ngn air sejuk skang..tp still dlm his bathing tub lah..at first kena mandi air sejuk dia punya menjerit sgtlah kuat..skang still bunyi2 gak bila kena mandi air sejuk tp kurang sketlah..
hehe..so thats all for now..till next post..bye

salam..a new post after long break..bukan ape,byk problem seperti modem di rumah yang dua kali disambar petir,pastu nak install yg baru by my dad took him so long..membuatkan aku malas nak log in online dan update blog..
So whats up?..we just moved in to our own house at desa permaisuri ,cheras..which means we started to live independently by our own..no more my mom,my dad to help me to look after uwais when beloved hubby not around..at first takut gak pikir bleh ke me take care of uwais alone,..(FYI he didnt sleep for long during daytime..kalo dapat tidur sejam pun dah kira lama membuatkan its hard for me to go off for makan,shower etc..)but alhamdullillah moved in to his own house he slept very well and makes me easier to do house chores,mandi ke mkn ke etc when hubby not around..
after 2 months plus off confinement leaves..its time for back to work again this coming monday..we already sort out baby sitter for uwais..that day dah try hantar just want to see how it goes..whether baby sitter boleh coop tak buat keje lain coz uwais sleeping time tak lama,so far she said its fine with her..risau jugak sbb dia pun ader 2 year old son to take care..tapi kalo dia dah ckp bleh jaga and takde problem so oklah kot..not seeing uwais from 9am to 7 pm is such a longest hours in life i havent see my beloved son..yelah mane pernah berenggang sejak lahir especially i only breastfed him..so that saper pon x leh nak bwk lari my son..mother in law ke my mom ke nak tido mlm ngn uwais pon xleh hhehehe..bagus bagus..duk umah tanpa anak tersayang..meroyanlah jugak..asyik tgk jam tunggu ptg hubby blk nak g fetch uwais..rindu gila...only 2 days send uwais to baby sitter..pastu jaga sendiri kat umah coz im still on leave till this sunday..so oficially antar uwais to baby sitter this monday..
..thats all for now..nak g tgk uwais syafi..rindu..till then..bye.

new journey..

im a new mummy..

salam..happy new year to all frenz,its been long since my last post..(as usual lah kan,..)a lot have changed since then,me becomed new mum and new baby arrived (dah a month old pon) heheh alhamdullilah..all those surgery,pain,excitement..everything went smoothly.but sorry for this late post..biasa lah bila dah ada baby xsempat nak wat mcm2..especially when smua org keje and only me and beloved Muhammad Uwais Syafi at home..yes that's the name given to my beloved baby boy..my 'Healing Gift'..Uwais means "pemberian" while Syafi means " yg menyembuhkan"..and he is my healing gift..healing every pain that i went through especially the pain while bringing him to this world..


uwais syafi on the day he was born3 weeks old..

thats all for now..nanti post his latest pic some more ..daahh..

salam

setiap kali update post setelah berkurun lama xupdate sure aku x tau nak mula ngan ayat ape..hhehe so bagilah salam dulu,Urm..i'm already on leave right now..yes FYI aku tgh menunggu hari to deliver beloved baby boy,which expected to be due on 22nd december 2009..but i couldnt wait till going into labor baru nak start leave..why?
1- Workload yg sgt stressful di ward..u have and expected to work and of course walk here and there yg mana aku xlarat dah..even people and collegue also advise u to just stay and they'll help as much as they can but when u are around u cant just see people do the job for u..especially when ur superior assigned ngam2 jer org utk keje time tu,smua org pon ada keje masing2 utk di settle kan..right?so u cant expect them to help u lebih2..thats why eventhough i know im not supposed to do certain thing eg:pushing beds..i still do it..but of course pelan2 lah..and sure u know ur limit..kalo rasa x tahan i just duduk rehat jap..thats the 1st thing why im already on leave.
2- Aku x larat drive..sgt lah menyenakkan perut dan dada ketika berada di dlm kereta..nak pulak tuh i used to travel back and to kl from shah alam..bayangkan kalo tetibe jalan jem plak tuh,,..x terberanak di buatnye..eventhough last few weeks nih husband yang hantar dan fetch from work..tp kesian gak kat dia nak lari utk amik aku..so the best thing cuti and rehat kat umah
3- Im finishing my annual leaves..which cant b carried forward to next year..tu jugak sebab why im now on vacation at home..(well..it cant be other place right now..)

There is another thing..even the due date will falls on 22nd december..but im expecting my baby weeks earlier which will be on 10th december 2009..and why im precisely sure bout the labor?coz im going for caesarian section..huhu..anyway thats the best for me and baby..he is still in persistently BREECH position..aka songsang..memang dari awal smpai lah nak end of the journey nih my baby havent turn his position at all..he only moves his legs and arms actively but not his position..i think he loves to hear mummy's heart sound..and be as nearest as he could to mummy's heart so much till he refuse to move away from it..hurm..i've tried several things to turn him but it just doesnt work..i've read some exercise from internet which can turn breech baby to normal position..urut..(x berani nak wat lebih2..ever since linda told me bout the aborted baby with hematoma on head and butt story time student dulu)minum air selusuh..and the rest just doa and talk to the baby..and now my obstetrician has given me and husband the date..which will be next week..i've signed the consent form..just doa dan tawakal..manelah tau ada miracle plak kan..but im not hoping much..so far mentally prepared..i just want the baby to be sihat and selamat..and hope that all friends and families will pray for the best for both baby and me..

Since we already know the date..(unless i turn into labor earlier lah kan..and its gonna be emergency LSCS..)mummy's hospital bag dah bertambah isinya..yelah kalo dulu prepare utk normal delivery paling2 stay kat hospital 2 hari..kalo xde problemlah kan..but skang it is going to be double..and probably more..so ive changed the bag to a bigger bag coz isi pun dah bertambah..yelah baju yg dulu prepare 2 helai dah jadi lebih..anyway i dont think i should bring byk sgt mcm nak g vacation plak..kalo x cukup,just ask hubby to bring from home lah..ape susah sgt.
Dalam menunggu hari ni actually ade lagi stuff yg blum beli..just thinking of final shopping this sunday..
1-diaper for baby
2- nursing bras
3- maternity panties..why i still need this? coz according to org yg berpengalaman ada wound LSCS..this type of panties will prevent from irritation to the wound site compare to normal panties..yelah maternity type panties tu kan high cutting sket..
4- Formula milk..i will definetely breast feed my baby..insyaallah..but mane lah tau the 1st few days tu xde BM lg..kotlah aku nak biarkan anak ku kelaparan..tp brand ape yg bagus yek.?
5- Bottle brush,EBM container and baby liquid dish washer..
6- baby wrapper..

Well till next post which probably after my delivery..aku ingin memohon maaf dan mintak halal segala makan minum dari semua yg baca post nih..doakan me and baby selamat dan sihat..mudah2an..amin...

im back again + eid mubarak..

salam..im back again for the latest post..byk nye nak update nih sampai aku pon xtau nak start from where..well..firstly eid mubarak..selamat hari raya aidilfitri dan minta ampun dan maaf untuk segala kesalahan dan kesilapan samada yg sedar atau dibawah tahap sedar atau sub concious mind..kkeke..biasalah kita kan sometimes bkn perasan yg actually we've been hurting other's feeling tanpa rasa bersalah..bkn ape..xperasan kan.hati org kita mane nak tau and anyway if i did and actually im sure i did it before..minta ampun lah byk2 yer..harap di ampunkan..dan di kesempatan ini juga aku memaafkan segala kesilapan dan kesalahan semua orang pada diriku ini..
Still bout raya..raya sebagai seorang isteri ..wow..sgtlah seronok!!seronok sebab well firstly beraya di kg ku dulu..so surelah seronok dan x sedih..coz family smua ada.hehhe..kalo time bercinta dulu time raya agak sedih kerana kita terpaksa be apart from each other..raya pertama aku dah sibuk duk pikir bila nak balik kl..nak meet up lah kata kan..padahal org yg kat sana tuh tgh sibuk beraya ngn his family..ee..tak patut sungguh kan tapi tulah bercinta..dah xpikir org lain..semuanya about own feeling and satisfaction jer..pastu kalo sendiri yg dah kalut nak balik kl jer xpe..sibuk plak nak suruh org yg kat sana blk awal gak ..sungguh x patut.penantian satu penyiksaan..hari raya kedua,ketiga dan seterusnya di rasakan sgtlah lame selagi kekasih hati xblk2 kl lagi..well tu dulu lah..sekarang dapat raya sama..kan seronok tuh..dan list persons-to be-asked -for- forgiveness pun dah bertambah..selain mak ayah, of course beloved husband..kena ingat family kita pon dah extended..when we get married.we re not only being married to our husband..but his family too..so mintak ampun kat in laws, his aunty,uncle,opah,tok ki..dan ramai lagi..raya ke3 me and husband balik taiping..well my first experience blk kg husband..seronok tapi x semeriah blk kg aku..xtaulah sebab tu dah raya ketiga dan keempat or what but according tu husband berjalan raya kat kg dia memang tak semeriah kat kg aku..so next year raya blk perak dulu and will see how pagi raya kat sana..plus time tu dah ada baby..insyaallah..huhuhu baby first raya kat perak..and me being apart from mama dan ayah..argghh..sedihnyer..camnerlah time tuh..

..sesi ampun dan maaf..xpe pasni dapat duit raya..

..our first raya pic as husband and wife..but ade additional creature plak kat situ..

Speaking of baby..he is big now..'HE'???.. yahh..he is a boy..when dr first told me
that im having a boy..i was suprised..coz smua org yg aku jumpa ckp.."mesti anak pompuan.."
coz tummy is not that big for a boy..but after few scan included detail scan shows that he is a boy..x kesah lah as long as baby sihat..im now 7th month pregnant, baby is big inside tummy and for sure tummy pon besar gak lah kan..but still org ckp small for a 7th month pregnant lady..he is kicking harder now..one day i was watching tv kat sofa sambil meletakkan remote control tv di atas perut yg semakin membesar..tiba2 baby tendang sgt kuat sampai terjatuh remote dari atas perut aku..tak tau lah dia tgh main bola ke,wat free kick or penalty kick ke..ntahlah..my leg starts to get oedematous skang..terkejut gak..sampai taiping aritu after bout 3 and half hours travel plus 1 and half hour travel dari negeri sembilan before that aku terasa lain time solat..especially time duduk tahiyat..i thot thats just due to pakai sandal baru or what but that night bila duduk lunjur kaki depan tv baru perasan kaki dah bengkak..and saat paling seksa adalah bila time nak b.o kat toilet..bkn nak b.o yg sakit..tp toilet kat kampung lah katakan..majority yg cangkung..dengan kaki yg bengkak,perut yg agak besar dan b.o plak yg agak constipated sbb mkn mcm2 dan kurang minum air..bayangkan sendirilah hasilnye..xpayah lah aku cite..so bila i reach satu rumah nih yang ada tandas duduk..ape lagi..pulun habis2an lah..hehehe..ari nih me will starts to work..agak boring jugak nih..but im more worried bout the leg..xleh nak jln byk coz akan bengkak..tp camnerlah keje cam aku nih tak jln byk..mustahil!!..hmm..what to do..so till next post..see ya.

im back..

Salam..im back!!..rasanye its been so long since my last entry which was on may..time tu baru 7th weeek pregnancy..and now im already 4 months+..equal tu almost 17th week..humm so far so good, as earlier no morning sickness,cuma ada 2,3 kali terasa nauseated tp xde vomit plak during early 8th week..pastu aku mcm org biasa yg x mengandung..heheh..alhamdulillah, anyway rasanye ade baik dan buruk aku xde sickness nih..yg baiknya: 1)tentulah aku xyah susah payah muntah loya dan mengalami segala mcm not-so-pleasant moment mcm org yg teruk kena sickness,bleh rilek jer..2)aku bleh g keje dan wat keje rumah,msk mcm biasa..3)bleh g jln2 tanpa masalah..yg takbaiknya: 1)aku dgr org kate kalo early pregnancy tuh sickness teruk..muntah sampai lembik atau pendek kata time mengandung tuh susah lah..nanti bersalin senang,so aku rasa kalo aku mengandung senang..takut plak bersalin nanti susah..huhuhu takut..!! 2)first pregnancy dah xde experience sickness yg teruk..takut pulak kalo time next pregnancy aku kena sickness yg teruk..mesti lagi susah..sekarang sorang diri,kalo muntah sampai lembik pon xpe..kalo dah ada anak nanti ksian anak aku tuh..maknye muntah sampai lembik...hiiii takutlah..anyway just pray for the best..
Pregnancy is really exciting especially utk new mum to be like me..its not about physiological and physical changes yg dialami..yeah of course perut membesar,breast enlarge..and now i can feel 'something' when place hand on tummy..but the new experiences that we're going through in the journey to becoming mum..example before this aku plan nak check up kat private for antenatal,..the only reason why aku g government and bukak 'buku merah'..or antenatal book is just takut nanti emergency kena bersalin kat gomen hospital dan kalo xde rekod kat gomen susah plak..so i just go to KKSA (Klinik Kesihatan Shah Alam)..in my plan nanti dah 6th month baru booking and wat antenatal checkup kat private hospital..coz ingat nak bersalin kat private. But after went back from checkup at KKIA..its not so inconvinient after all..and i can say that eventhough only a staff nurse done the session it was done thoroughly..better than compared to some doctor yg wat antenatal checkup kat klinik..the advice given pon detail..xmcm certain GP in clinic..anyway i just came back from Breast feeding Talk..very interesting..eventhough aku pon staffnurse tp manalah ade idea yg detail sgt pasal benda2 nih..kalo tanye aku congenital heart disease tau lah ku..dan lebih best lagi aku lah satu2 nya ibu yg bertanya semua soalan..kalo Jururawat Masyarakat tu tau aku nih staffnurse jugak mesti dia ckp dlm hati " ade jugak staffnurse yg ngok mcm dia nih.." org lain yg bukan staffnurse pon pandai dari aku..ahh..wat everlah aku byk tanye sebab aku educated..yelah bila kta in this line kita jumpa ramai org yg susah nak breastfeed anak diorang walaupun dah di ajar..ajar memang senang tp aku dah experience tgk mak yg baru bersalin breastfeed bkn semudah yg diajar..or mungkin diorang yg tak menanya tu mmg pandai kot..what everr lah.and persepsi aku pon dah berubah..rasanye nak bersalin kat goverment hospital jerlah..sebab diorang akan straight away bagi anak kat kta utk disusukan dgn keadaan masih berdarah,ader verniks dan tali pusat..(ikut citer nurse tuh lah)utk diletakkan atas bdn kita direct tanpa alas baju atau kain utk stimulate susu and thats the best way utk galakkan susu keluar dgn byk..kalo kat private anak akan jarang berada dgn kita..hmm..ok lah..til next entry ..dah...!!